Some days there is no one in the pool during adult swim and then I am the happiest, able to close my eyes, not worrying about bumping into someone and just give into the feeling of floating without a care. Awwwww the prayers I can give up in those moments, the total general feeling of having not a care in the world.
But somedays there are other adults that want to join me in the water. I have to keep an eye open, watch where the waves take me and on those days I end up going to the side of the pool and hooking just one toe on the side of the pool to keep me anchored , so I dont float into the circle of women who stand , talking in the middle of the deep end....... or so I dont bump into the serious swimmer doing his laps. I hate the feeling of being anchored but at least I can close my eyes and relax.
The other day was an anchor day, too many people to float aimlessly around the pool. That is when I noticed that even the slightest wave from someone swimming by, or jumping in way over on the other side, caused water to go down my nose, it seemed like every other minute I had to fight to stay afloat against the waves, had to get used to the feeling of water splashing over my face. Funny, I thought, how if I am not anchored , if I float unhindered through the water, that never happens, no matter how high the waves go or how much the water is stirred I stay on top and move with the waves instead of them crashing into me.
That is when the whispers started........
Creator reminded me that this is the way of life, the path of a person who trusts Him. If you truly let go and let the waves of His Spirit move you, no matter how scary the waves get, no matter how much people think you are floating too far from what they think is safety....... if you truly lay back into My arms, you will float in peace, in safety and unhindered. But when you anchor even a toe to this world , to keep you feeling safe in this world, then you will feel the waves hit harder, you will fight to keep your life on a balanced float , you will feel battered if you try to keep your safe hold to this world, while trying to walk a truly Spirit walk with Me.
I know this is true...... the times when He has asked me to truly walk in faith on an issue or on a mission it had to be 100 % surrender to His will. People didnt understand it , well meaning people tried to tell me to hook that one toe on the earth to stay anchored........ but the times I did it right, I just floated, I just trusted and no matter how high the waves, or how scary it looked to friends and family watching, it was a peaceful wonderful ride ......
We are human, it is hard to let go of the edge of the pool sometimes, but man oh man I am so glad for the times I floated without anchor in the waves of His Spirit.
TJ James 2011
